“He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.”, Psalm 91:4
It can be unsettling to wake in the night and feel the chill of the night air as you realize that somewhere in the night, your covering has shifted, fallen or somehow been removed. If you are like me, you hurry to locate the sheet or blanket that gave you the security you needed as you reposition yourself in an attempt to return to sleep. For me this feeling of being uncovered in this season reaches far beyond the bedroom to every step of the path I am taking along this life’s journey. I’m glad today for God’s word that reminds me God Himself is covering me.” While this word is comforting, I am transparent enough to share that my heart longs for the Godly covering of the man purposed to be in my life to always support all my endeavors.
Generally speaking, a covering is something put in front of or on top of something to protect or conceal it. In relationship, I see this covering taking some very practical steps to aid in the welfare of me and our family. Covering us in prayer, laying hands and anointing the vision God has given, supporting my gifting and callings with joy and excitement and no intimidation. With his strong faith and true heart for relationship with God first, he loves me unconditionally. As the mighty warrior God made him to be, he detracts the darts that come to destroy the family unit. As a gentle touch in the middle of the night, he wipes my tears away and whispers prayers while comforting me with his strong yet soft touch.
As the storms of this life continue to rage, my longing grows ever deep to soon receive what God has intended for me. I try not to look back at my past choices yet I can’t help but wonder if I’m the reason for the delay. Many days pass and the thought of his coming are all that keep me pressing on toward the mark. As a lover of music, I have made a list encompassing many songs that will be a part of the melody we will make together forever. Some are gospel, some are inspirational, some are hot rhythm and blues, some are love ballads and I’m confident this list will continue to grow until he comes.
One of those many songs is T.D. Jakes’, “Usher Me.”, which depicts my forever request of him, when I’m feeling like I feel today-broken, defeated and just simply depleted. His presence alone will be a blessing. But his wisdom and willingness to know what is ultimately needed will be the key to overcoming any situation.
(I’ll thank him always)
Thank you for the roses to brighten up my day
Thank you for the tenderness to wipe my tears away
(He won’t have to be told He will notice what I need)
But when you see me drifting, sinking and needing lifting
Usher me into the presence of the Lord
(My request always when I am down)
Usher me, there my healing can begin
Usher me, there my broken heart can mend
Usher me, I need to be restored
So usher me into the presence of the Lord
(The trials of life won’t run him away, for he’ll stand firm to assume his role as my “covering”)
Don’t let pain discourage you, you know just what to do
(He’ll do his part and not feel less of man when all he does in his own strength is not enough)
When my heart is overwhemled, I lay my head on you
Though I still need mending, it’s no offense to you.
(Because of His love for God first, He’ll honor my request when I am down)
Just usher me into the presence of,
Usher me into the presence, Oh oh,
Usher me, there my healing can begin
Usher me, there my broken heart can mend
Usher me, I need to be restored
So usher me into the presence of the Lord
In this season, I am delighting myself in my Lord, not settling in any area of my life, doing all I can to live holy, to live healthy and to be the best example I can for my child. I understand being covered by the blood. I understand God is my banner and I trust that in His timing, He will unveil His earthly plan for the next season in my life. When “he” shows up, I’ll know because I will finally have allowed the word of God to do the work in my life and be the gauge by which I measure all things. I won’t waste time with jobs, houses, statuses, titles and all the things I know first hand come and go. I will curl up tightly, whisper a prayer of thanksgiving and shout to the top of my lungs, “Cover Me!”